So much to think about....

Today Sophia had her game at half time with the NSU Riverhawks and it went awesome!Such a fun and exciting time they had.She scored 2 goals and won!!I so proud of all my Panthers!!

Im in the middle if thinking of where do I want to go from here...there are so many options and I honestly wanna chose now instead of later.I wanted to wait until Adalyn was old enough but that cant happen.So things will change and I have so much to think about with where my future is going.


I got to talk to my husband tonight again and I sure missed him so much!Hes my best friend and its so hard not having him here.Its also so hard not showing him my dress!!I have chosen not to have bridesmaids and I have my reasons..if I could have my husband to be the maid of honor I so would but he is the groom and I wouldnt change that for anything.He is the man God gave us and chose this life for us because he knew we would last a life time as each others forever.I love him and Im blessed with the 2 beautiful girls to make our fairytale a happy beginning.

Its been a few days..

So today was the better than any day Ive had so far..why?...because my daughter won her game again and scored 3 goals!!!Also we got Patricks dvd in the mail which I surprised the girls with Daddy reading them 2 books on the disk!!!I had time to finish all of the care packages as well and they are ready to ship and send!!On top of that Ive found my wedding dress and its perfect:)!!!

Today was perfect in the bet way possible while my husband is away.I miss him like crazy and it gets very hard not having him here but I think im doing a lot better than I was.I got to skype with him again tonight and just seein ghis face made me tear up (which im sure he didnt even notice lol ty skype)....Ill continue to pray to get through this nightmare.I miss him and love him more than words could explain.


Sophia gets to play a game of Soccer in between the Riverhawks Soccer game tomorrow and Im so happy for my Panthers!!!I will for sure take some pics:)!!

Im off to bed Im so exhausted but I will continue to pray for happiness and positive support all around.I love you Patrick with all my heart Everyday of Forever.......

p.s. its been a few days but ill be back;)!

Arts&Crafts

Today went well..spent a lot of time with our girls and had fun doing crafts with Sophia.We also got to talk with Daddy on Skype which was so cute cause Sophia was making Adalyn laugh so hard bahahaha to cute!!!
Tomorrow is Sophias Soccer practice and this coach cant wait!!!
It was good to talk with my hubby today I really needed that time as well.My head is still hurting and its been rough around here with Sophia asking questions about everything which makes it hard on me.I cant wait for this night mare to be over with....

I mean every word...

I am pretty much half way through this deployment and there has been so much stress that was never needed.Ive learned one thing about myself (if you mess with my family I will fight back).I give my all in friendships but when you hurt me I will back away but I always forgive in the end cause God would never want me holding a grudge.I am stronger than Ive ever been and have come so far.I am so blessed with the people who have helped me along the way.Some people may not like me but thats just cause they dont know the truth or dont know me.Now-Ive chosen to move on from the people who have hurt me..from the friends who have turned on me and even the family who were never there for me.My husband and my children are the greatest gifts from God himself and I need to start living my life through my Heavenly Father again cause I have lost myself once again to this world of hate.Heres to a new me and a new beginning.This is to living me through me now♥.I love you Patrick Perry Everyday of Forever....


I know this was pretty much my status but I ment every word....


Sophias Soccer practice went so well today and I am very thankful that the parents helped out today.After telling them half way through I had I minor concussion lol I think they felt bad but it went great!!Adalyn stayed home with grandma and had fun playing an getting spoiled.


Me-Im so sore I fell asleep on the couch and woke up to Sophia covering me up lol shes such a blessing and such a good sister to baby Adalyn.I love my girls.


Oh and the guys got their Care Packages!!!!!!How awesome is that!!!They loved it!!!Im so happy it went around to like 6 guys.Makes me one proud Army Wife.Now I cant wait to start making their Halloween ones haha;)!

Back on track...

Okay so Sat Sophia won her Soccer game!!!I had so much fun coaching my Panthers they did so well yet again!!!She hasent had any accidents but still has that attitude like shes all that ughhh my baby girl is growing up to fast...

Adalyn is loving this Mommy time lol...even when my mother stays she sleeps with me at night.She always has to kick her arms and legs to make sure Im there haha to cute but her kicks hurt.She is loving her play pin now and gives me more time to get things done.

Me-Well ya know..Im back on track and loving every minute I have talking to my husband.I miss him very much and it hurts to have him so far away.I cant call when I need him.I cant see when I miss him.I cant kiss him when I  wanna love him.....it got to me these past 3 days...our communication sucked but thankfully we worked through it and everything is back on track.

We also set out Save the Date!!!!Finally having our wedding we didnt get to have cause of the deployment and being pregnant.We both deserve it and we are finally getting our day.

Just another day....

  Just another day with my beautiful girls and me.I had a lot of thinking and planning today on my everyday life for our girls.We have Soccer practice tomorrow an Im excited to Coach again I enjoy teaching my Panthers.Adalyn was very excited to see Daddy on Skype today and just stared and wouldnt take her eyes off lol.

  I know my girls miss their Daddy and it takes a toll on me thats for sure.I still need to work on communication with my husband and its very hard with delays through skype and phone with Internet messing up on both ends.Im trying to stay calm and do my best.

  Im also working on trying to be a better mother cause I think there are days where I slack and I feel like a bad mother and I know I shouldnt but thats how I feel.I wanna be the best for our girls and I know I can do better.

  I miss my husband very much and I cant wait to get the girls package in the mail of Daddy reading them a book for each other.Im sure I will play it over and over haha;) I sure do miss my husband....

Missing my best friend....

 So today was filled of stuff that needed done I sent off 4 care packages to the guys and I sure hope they love them.I also coached Sophias Soccer practice and it went very well Im so happy to see that they are all learning and getting better at the game while having fun.I also went out to eat with the grandparents and Mother with the girls.That also went very well.
  Sophia is getting better at Soccer and working on dribbling the ball very well Im so proud of her and her team.She sure misses Daddy Patrick though and it sucks cause I dont know what else to say but remind her of what I know.
  Adalyn is doing well once again just waiting on the day that she takes off.She loves sitting up with support and is also eating oatmeal for dinner now.It helps her sleep through the nigh which is so good for mommy lol.


Im learning how to keep busy and pass the time and honestly some times I feel like my day goes so fast and I cant finish or do the things that I need to get done:(..but I know when it dosent go fast I complain about it going to slow so Im like whatever now cause Im trying to find a mutual in them both..Wish me luck...

I sure miss my husband though and im trying so hard to live life without him for the moment and it sucks.I hate not having him here and not being able to have my best friend......

Another 2am I'm sure of it....

  I am so happy to be back on track talking to than man I love...Hes been so busy packing his day that Ive had to find things to pack mine as well lol....Ive been enjoying my girls and thankfully getting some sleep while my mother is here visiting with me.Once again though I'm sure it will be 2am before I go to bed:(...I know its all my fault but I enjoy this time not having to deal with kids lol....I dont enjoy the no sleep part.
  Tomorrow I will be taking Sophia to practice some soccer and finishing the Care Packages so my guys over seas and my husband will have a little piece of home.Ill keep praying for each of them and hope that they will all come home safe and sound.I also will pray for the ones left behind who deal with everyday life alone or going through so much at a time.Im trying to keep positive though and stay strong but believe me I have my days.
  Adalyn is eating a little bit of oatmeal now and well thank goodness she is sleeping longer throughout the night finally.I sware she will start crawling any day now.Just wondering when she will take off lol.I really hope that her father will be online when she does.I dont want him to miss it even though I will film it its just not the same.I am very thankful for Sype even if the internet sucks...
  Im very exhausted so this is all I got for now lol....night night.
p.s. I miss my husband very much and I sure do miss being in his arms....

Well..will see....

  These past few days have been very hectic on my side but I have got so many things done its crazy!!Bills paid and care packages ready to be shipped.I worked a good amount of time getting those things together and I sure hope they love them.I miss my husband like crazy and I havent got to talk to him much these past few days and it sucks I feel horrible when I dont get to.The other night we were so sleepy that we laid down together for a bit an it felt so nice to have him ther beside me even if hes around the world.
  Sat Sophia won her game and I was so proud of her!!She slide tackled a few boys but who would have thought bahaha.She also helped with scoring and did great on passing the ball which is awesome at this age.Me and her Dad took her to see the Lion KIng in 3D which was awesome haha I loved it as well probably just as much;).I love seeing movies in 3D especially with my baby girl.Adalyn is also doing well she is getting so much stronger and Im just awaiting the day she takes off haha.She also loved watching sister play the game.Please keep her in your prayers because we have to go back to see h er specialist and run more test and I should find out tomorrow when we go.
  Me well Im getting better and being a better Mother and long distance wife..I bite smy tongue a lot to keep peace with family members and I step down in my marriage because I know its hard on other people as well and Im trying harder to be great Mother and Wife at this crazy everyday life of ours.I sure do miss my husband though.He is my Strength&Faith that gets me through this and I will love him Everyday of Forever.
  I hope he slept well cause we have a date tomorrow and he better not be late;).......and me well im going to bed now cause once again its past 2am and I have had no sleep.....night night<3

More than Proud....

  Today was a very busy day with grocery shopping and handling Adalyns med.I managed to get all of Patricks Care Package taken care of and got the boxes:) now just to decorate them with love.I cant wait for him to get them so he can have a little piece of home even if its in a box.I had a little scare today but I got through it with the help of a few fellow Army wives and I am very blessed to know them.

  I finally got to hear from my love today which Im so thankful cause I havent heard from him all day and was getting worried for a bit.Turns out he had a long mission and got to run the 1/2 Marathon which I am so proud!!!I wish I could have been there cheering him on cause I sure would be one of those wives yelling and cheering for them;)!Im also proud of the few guys who ran it as well.Way to go guys!!!!Im so proud of them all and there are no words to show how proud I truly am for my husband!

  Tomorrow is supposed to be Sophias first Soccer game and Im so excited for her but the down side is that if it keeps raining it will be cancelled:(.So we will see....She is also staying with her Dad this weekend and Im missing her so much an I think Adie is as well.Adalyn is trying so hard to sit up,talk and even crawl!!Its crazy how out of no where shes wanting to get up and go!!I think no more than a few weeks and she will be crawling everywhere.

  Well I really need some sleep cause once again its like past 2am and Im up....so sweet dreams bloggers..

p.s. I love you Patrick Perry Everyday of Forever....Strength&Faith.......

Why I cant I get to bed earlier than 2am....

  So today was a very busy day and not much but paying bills and trying to do it with a baby and a toddler is not easy what so ever!!Oh,did I mention the rain that made it worse....I got everything done though and thank goodness.I only have a few more things to do tomorrow and then relaxing until the big game Sat.I did get my husbands care packages put together and sent them off with the FRG.His whole tent will be getting one for each of them an I sure hope they like them:).
  I think I need to find.....(break)....something else to keep me busy like start some classes or look more into working again.My mind wont stop racing and this sucks.
  Sophia's first game is Sat and Im so excited to Coach my little Panthers.They have done so well for their age and Im so proud to be Coaching the team.She also goes with her Dad this weekend:( so It will be just be and Adie spending some mommy and daughter time.Adalyn is also doing well she keeps trying to sit up even when you hold her she will push up like she does and its so cute haha.She will start cooing and acting like shes trying to talk which is amazing at this age.
Adalyn Laughing Click This To Watch!!
  Theres not much to say today I dont even feel like writing right now but will see how tomorrow goes.I love you Patrick with all my heart and Im happy he got to play a few games today and hang out with the guys.Probably some much needed bonding time.
  Well its bed time for me and once again its 2am an Im still awake...Zzzz....

Im getting stronger....

  Yep thats right Im getting stronger with each day that passes.That does not mean its easy cause let me tell you its the hardest thing ever.I was able to get much needed sleep last night thanks to my mother who was visiting and helping me with Adalyn while I coached Sophias team.OMG....I hate doing laundry with 2 kids lol...try carrying laundry,a baby and a toddler whos half asleep trying not to fall.I still have yet to get everything folded but thankfully I got most.The joys of doing everything by myself....Tomorrow is pay day so that means bill day:(.. pray for me lol..with hauling the kids in and out of the car every time I need to pay a bill is going to be very rough.If you dont have kids just imagine and if you do well ya know..
  The girls did pretty good today.They got to visit Great Grandparents and Grandma while Mommy did Laundry and cleaned.Sophia has Soccer practice tomorrow and Im hoping it goes well for them.I love my little Panthers!Adalyn I sware she almost crawled again...not much longer Im thinking less than 2 weeks and shes got it.Shes so peaceful beside me sleeping in Mommy&Daddys bed:).
  I had lots of fun talking with my husband today on Skype.Enjoyed meeting hes buddies and had fun watching them play with the beach balls and water balloons I sent hahaha...so fun to see them having a little down time and to take their minds off of being away from home.
  I sure do miss so many things about my husband.Like his laugh...boy do I miss his laugh lol.I actually have it on my phone and I listen to it every now and then when I am down or feeling alone.He sure knows how to make me laugh so hard:).He is doing so well over there and Im so proud and amazed that he is keeping fit and doing what he needs to do to be a good Soldier.I hope he knows that he is loved in so many ways with so many people who support and care for him....I will always love him Everyday of Forever...
  We got this honey Strength&Faith.

Hmmm...today was....

  So today was all around okay..had a few things to take care of and get rid of this morning.It went well and now Im back to living life.

  Sophia had her Soccer practice and it went very well.I love my Panthers;)!!She is learning so much and dribbles the ball so well.I know I am one proud mommy.I wish my husband was here to see it and it sucks but I know he hurts cause hes not here to be with her through this.I do my best to keep him posted and Ill do whatever it takes.
  Adalyn well she was with Grandma for most of the day since I was taking Sophia which helped so much.I got a lot of much needed sleep last night and pray I get more tonight since Grandma stayed another night hehe.She hasent started crawling yet but shes almost there and Im so happy for her.
  Im trying to get sleep duh....Im taking care of the house hold and everyday life..Im actually thinking about taking some classes but wont announce my choice until im actually signed up for it so will keep it on the DL.Im not sure what I wanna do but right now my girls need me and they have all my attention for now.Ill get my time when the time is right..I just hope its soon:(....


  Missing my husband....yea if you have read my status's and blogs you all know I miss him very much and there is not on thing that will come between us...well here it goes again..."I MISS MY HUSBAND!!!" It will only get harder and never easy until he is home safe and sound.I will get stronger though and more Independent as the days go by.I miss everything about him..hes my best friend and I sure do miss picking up the phone and letting him know about my day or something special in my day.I miss his laugh..oh mannnn do I miss his laugh!!I miss his touch and his kisses..xoxoxox honey!

I love him and I will always love him Everyday of Forever..until Eternity...

Timing is everything....

So today felt like it went by so fast and well it did.I missed my husband and he was never off my mind today.Hearing he was back from his mission and doing well was awesome to hear.Ive been trying to get into a system with the girls and trying to find things to make life a little easier on us.Im sure it will take a few more days but man its really taking a toll on me.Im sure Ill get it and I pray I do soon..very soon.
  Skype time is precious timing for me..I feel like even though we talked for 2 hours or an hour it only feels like  a few minutes:(....I almost end up in tears every time we get off of it cause I feel like theres always something Im not able to say or did I tell him enough that I loved him..Just thinking about it makes me sick:(...I know Im thankful that I can even talk to my husband and even see him through this deployment but that dosent make it any easier..
  The girls are doing okay but Sophia is having a hard time still.Grandma is with us tonight which Im very thankful for cause I know she loves Grandma.She's also doing better on listening and obeying mommy's rules but you know how kids can be I guess.Adalyn is trying so hard to crawl and almost did it again for Daddy today on Skype.Im pretty sure shes teething already....blah....My girls are my world and I hate that my husband is not here to go through all of this with us.I know some is through Skype but its hard doign it all on my own.Even when I do have help its still hard.Im never relaxed or I think theres always better ways to do things so im constantly on my toes.
  Im at my breaking point with friends..I cant trust anyone and some times I feel like people dont even care.Or they are just friends to pass the time until they are with their husbands.So I put the highest wall up so they dont break me or my relationship.The main reason I started this blog was to keep updated so that my husband can read or my family&close people who care to read will be updated in our life.Its hard to make Army wife friends cause they are either crazy drama freaks or so far away that theres no reason to become close cause I dont wanna put them through hell of driving so far when I know they are having it rough as well.So being home and living life through my girls is th ebest thing for me right now and I pray it only gets better from here.

  I know that I will always stand beside my husband and support him in whatever hes life takes him and love him Everyday of Forever....I love you Patrick so much that there are hardly any words to describe my love for you.I thank our Heavenly Father every night....

While Daddy's away....

    So today I didnt even wanna get out of bed but you know my girls wont let me sleep in lol....I didnt even wanna turn on the tv since almost every channel was about 9// and I couldnt bare to watch a lot of it so I stayed busy..well tried.We lost 3 more Soldiers from the 45th and which made it even worse to go about my day.Theres not a signal day or night I do not pray for these brave Soldiers...I know a few wives that are going through so much and I pray God is helping them through this hard time in their life.
  Sophia practiced her numbers,letters and abc's today and did very well...she had another accident:( but Im sure this is just a stage she will over come and will get better.I plan on going to a few workshops that the military is providing so I can get more advice on helping my baby girl through this hard time.She was upset when she didnt get to see Daddy today on Skype but he was very busy and his Internet wasent working plus a mission on top of that.
  Adalyn well a happy baby like always.Showing her support today for Daddy;)....she sure knows how to keep a smile on my face even when its been hard on us all.She will be going back to see her specialist and I pray she will be fine..(please keep her in your prayers)Just as I think I have gotten stronger for her her doctors appointment rolls around and it hits hard on me:(...
  Me....you know how it is...hurry up and wait is my life.I miss my husband very much and theres so much going on around us that I wish he was here to go through these hard times as a family instead of around the world.Hes doing so well though and such a wonderful Soldier.He makes me so proud and im sure his daughters will be as well.All the guys are kicking butt at running the 5k's.I cant wait to get my shirts so I can show them off to support my hubby.
  Tomorrow is another day and will be another lazy day for us here at the Perry house.I hope to get a chance to catch up with my love but until then its off to bed until the little ones feeding time....I love you Patrick with all my heart Everyday of Forever....

The night before 9//.......

Today went well..We took off to the fields for from soccer practice and to watch a few games to get the feeling of the game and let the kids see what they will be doing next Sat.Im so proud of Sophia shes getting so good an loves the game.She was also happy to show Daddy that she can do the splits and boy when she saw that Daddy was so proud her face just lit up.
  Adalyn has been such a good baby and so happy.She loves seeing Daddy on Skype and I sware I thought she was going to start crawling for him:).I pray he will get to see her crawl for the first time even if its through Skype.
 
  Its day 3 of not feeling so well and Im not sure how to go about my days right now.911 ten years later will be here at 12am and it scares me.Knowing my husband will be on a mission and going through the day will be rough on me.I miss him very much and seeing him tonight felt so good.Just thinking about having him home makes me tear up.To be in his arms again would be amazing.I know he has to go and do his job and I have to try and be strong not only for me but for our girls.

  I miss you my love and you are on my mind and in my prayers everyday and every night.Ill be here awaiting faithfully for your safe return.Everyday of Forever my love.

p.s. You've made me feel like an everlasting life....

A day with the girls talking with my one true love....

Okay so today was just me and the girls and getting back into our system of doing everything on our own.I enjoy being with my girls so much and teaching them new thing each and everyday but today felt like a train hit me:(...for the past 2 days Ive been feel out of it.Like I almost passed out cause I stood up to fast I guess.I hope whatever this is will pass fast.
  On the other hand I got to talk with my amazing husband.He sure knows how to make me laugh so hard and smile so big even when hes around the world.I love just sitting there talking about everything and anything and learning about his day or how the guys are doing as well.Hes such a strong man and Im so lucky to have him as my husband.
  Sophia is something else..she is getting so much older its crazy!Shes talking like a little adult and im like where did my baby girl go???Tomorrow is another day of Soccer so everyone look out for new pics of our Panthers and wish us luck.
  Adalyn well that chunky monkey lol she is one happy baby girl always smiling and having fun watching her big sis play.Enjoying playing with toys now and cooing with the cutest little smile ever;)!
  Me, Im getting use to not having him around and it sucks.I have these days where all I wanna do is just hear and see him.Thank goodness I have an amazing husband who did just that.We talked for so long and even got right back on to talk again.I love and miss him so much.

Another day is gone....

 Okay so today was just me and the girls..started off by getting only like 3 hours of sleep total and waking up to both girls in my bed lol...Very lazy but stressful day it was.Sophia got her jersey today and she is number 55:)!Im so proud and cant wait for her to ware it for her first game next week!..I havent been feeling well today and im not sure whats wrong but I better get well fast cause I have to much planned out for this weekend.Dinner was some what okay...lol screaming baby and Sophia complaining about her cleaning her room..but we managed and everyone got fed even if my food was cold by the time I got to enjoy it haha.Thats okay as long as I get my time now to enjoy my shows and write in my blog...
  It makes me think of just how much Patrick helped out when he was here.Even the little things helped out in a million ways.Like keeping the girls busy while I cooked dinner or even taking the trash out helped so much.Now that its all on me it be rough..and I dont see how other mothers do it with more kids than what I have but I guess they take it day by day and learn with each day that passes.I can tell you this that I sure do appreciate everything my husband did for me and is still doing even when hes around the world.
  I like it here with just me and the girls.No one to bother us nor have any drama dealing with everyone else.I love bonding with them more than I ever thought I would.I also enjoy our Skype time with my husband.Its been such a blessing and were so happy he calls everyday.Its something we look forward to everyday.It helps us keep going like we have much better days when he contacts us more and even with the girls.Sophia does so well when Daddy calls it so cute that shes so excited for her Daddy time:).
  Im trying to deal with life and get into a system to what makes me happy as well as keeping the girls happy while hes away.Im not sure where the road takes me right now but I do know our girls come first.So I guess will see and another day will go and I will soon find peace I just hope its soon.I plan on going to a few workshops that the military has for parents to help with childern of deployed parents and I hope it helps.
  I miss him so much and just going about another day praying and wishing he was her safe in our arms again.Its hard but I do it and let me tell you its so worth every heart ache.
I love you Patrick Perry you are my everything Everyday of Forever!

I wish he could have been there....

  Today was our first Soccer Practice for the Panthers and Sophia did so well.Our team is a great group of fun and active little Panthers;) Im very proud to be their coach.I wish he could have been there though..I know that he will miss out on so much but I will do my best to keep him posted on the Homefront.Most of our kids on the team have never played before and they did so well for their first time.We did some drills and then played a scrimmage which went very well.Im so happy the parents are just as helpful and im very blessed to have such active parents on the team.After practice the great grandparents took us out for dinner to celebrate and Sophia couldnt stop talking about how much fun Soccer was.

  Adalyn was such a good and supportive little sister she did so well with grandma waiting for sister until it was over and gave her the biggest smiles ever.She was so cute at the dinner table with her toys...so cute.
  Well Im doing okay just living life and doing whatever it takes to be the best mother and wife that I can be and to be honest I know I can be better.I have my whole life to be better so for now its one day at a time for my little family..I dont wanna rush and I dont wanna miss anything.I do want this deployment to hurry up and end so I can be with my love again cause this is very hard going through life without your better half.Im so proud and so thankful he is one amazing father and husband and our girls are so lucky to have a father like him.
  I cant wait to see him again tomorrow I look forward to our emails and blogs it keeps me going and communication is the best thing you can possibly give when your going through something like this.Thank you honey we love you so much and will continue to pray for your safe return....
  Another day down and many more to go....

Dealing with life after R&R

Well my husband went on his first mission after R&R and from what I hear went very well and let m etell ya there wasent an hour I did not pray for those guys.No matter how small or big the mission is they are still American Soldiers in my eyes and will forever be our Hero's.Please keep him in your prayers especially the men and women in Afghanistan.My husband told me he met a Soldier that was just over there and he asked for prayers that were much needed for over there....gives me chills.


Well our Skype Date went very well and once again had me blushing and smiling so much that my face was hurting like always haha.Even though this time he could not talk only type it was still very nice to see him and just talk about our day and how much we missed each other.I love him so much and still amazes me everyday just how much I do.


Sophia starts Soccer tomorrow and Im so excited for her.We took the ball out and practiced today and she did so well.Sometimes forgot the ball lol but did awesome!So look out for pics and updates on her team the Panthers:)!!She hates that her Daddy cannot be here for her first practice or even games but she will do her best and send pics and updates.
Adalyn enjoyed her Skype time with Daddy and wouldnt take her eyes off him..if she only knew just how much he misses her.Those 2 are more alike than they know and holding her is so hard not to tear up when all I see is him..amazes me.
Me well im enjoying my girls and my emails,blog and Skype with my family.It means so much to me and im very blesses an thankful.Im very nervous to start couching my daughters team tomorrow,I dont want to let her down nor do I wanna let her team mates down.I wanna do the best I can so they will learn the game and more than ever enjoy the Game.I also applied for a job that I hope to get and well I can only wait and pray for that one.Adalyn has been keeping mommy busy busy and well looks like she will be sitting up and crawling an im waiting for that day.Im just hoping her Daddy will be on Skype or at least by the computer when she does..but ill film it just in case.
Well I gotta give Adie her meds then im off to bed for some much needed sleep.Grandma is here tonight so I gotta take advantage of the sleep.
I love you honey an we are very proud of you.Stay safe tomorrow and have a good day my love.

Our First Skype Date After R&R

Can I say WOW!!!Well it started off taking me to Starbucks lol which went very well.I also wore his OSU shirt that he left here so I thought I would surprise him in wearing it since Im an OU fan.Patrick has opened me up to many new things in my life like singing again and viewing other sports like I just became a Soccer coach for my daughters team.He brings out the best in me and that date just made me blush and laugh like he was sitting right beside me.My face hurt from smiling and laughing so much and its still sore.I love how much he cares and communicates with me so well...things are changing all around but I feel my love for him just goes stronger with each day that passes.
  Today I got the final list for Sophias Soccer team and her first practice is Wed and Im so excited for her.I will post pics and do my best to make sure Patrick feels as if he never left and ill do whatever it takes to keep him apart of our activities and everyday life.Adalyn oh goodness..she is trying to sit up by herself and will try anything to do so haha its so cute and amazes me how much she thrives to what what she wants kind of reminds me of her Daddy;).
  This past weekend has been crazy..not busy but emotions and just trying to relax and its so hard without my little family.During R&R the Finally days of it I was so relaxed and if it wasent for my husband waking me up I would have slept all day haha.Its hard to get back into the hang of things but im sure it will take sometime.
  Well tomorrow Im seeing about a certain job.I think it will be best for me to start working again.So with that and being a coach and mommy plus everyday life this deployment will have nothing on me and my hubby.Hes everything a girl would hope and pray for.Hes that prince that everyone wants or that guy in the chick flicks that makes you blush and makes your heart melt a thousand times.I will say that everyday of forever because God gave me this love cause he knew I could handle this life and he knew that we would love each other more than we have every loved another and im very thankful and blessed.
  This is only 2% of how I feel and if you only knew how happy my little family makes me feel you would have the biggest smile on your face right now and those butterflies that are to hard to get rid of right away and the tears that come because you are to happy to keep it all in....

I miss him so much though and theres not a min in any day that I dont think about,miss or love him.
To just another day..<3

1st Skype after R&R

Ahhh it felt so good to hear and see him I miss him like crazy.Its been a rough weekend but we are communicating so well and have found a good system to keep us strong.Starting this Blog and writing each other emails feels so good there are no words.
Tomorrow we get to have a Date and even though hes around the world he always puts a smile on my face and has me blushing.Im very thankful to have a husband who keeps in contact with me instead of making excuses about not talking with me like some men over there do.He always puts me time in his day and Im so blessed to have such a good husband.


Sophia comes home tomorrow and I cant wait to have both my girls together.I need them both right now and since tomorrow is a Holiday we are staying inside and enjoying some girl time.


Im trying to find out where my good support systems are.From which friends are there for me and actually care and come see me instead of me driving across the state to see them all the time.I need an equal friendship with no drama because I already have my best friend and he is out of the US for now...I need a good friend not a hip hugger lol.Will see as time passes.


I do wanna let everyone know that I have an amazing husband who treats me like a princess and I wanna give him a shout out that he cooked me breakfast most of the mornings he was here on his R&R:)...hes a keeper and if you think thats awesome thats only 5% of what he does for me.I know I do a lot for him as well but not many men out there care to do the little things that make life worth living.Thank you honey..you have opened my eyes so much and I have grown in so many ways.


Well thats all for now.......I cant wait for my Date with him:) Im nervous haha.......

Deployment After R&R

Our R&R was the best and so much fun.We took advantage of everything we could possible do.Went 2 Galveston,Houston,Texas and did so much.From visiting 2 different Aquariums,Kemah Boardwalk,Houston Zoo,Beach,Chocolate factory and lots more was awesome.Ill never forget those 2 weeks with my little family.I love my husband so much and im so thankful to have him in my life.

This is day 2 of being alone yet again an it sucks so bad..the worst pain of my life so far sending my husband back to that horrible place.Watching him get his ACU's on had me tearing up an seeing his clothes and boots gone I felt like my room was empty.I miss his clothes on the floor and I miss tripping over all his stuff.I miss having absolutely no room left in the bed with him....the little things that I miss so much about him here.Now my room feels bare and every time I walk in there I look around hoping to find something of his to make a memory.I even turn the pillow around just to feel like his there and not have the whole bed to myself.

Sophia is with her father for the weekend so its just me and Adalyn.Im kinda happy that Sophia is not here an that she is not around all these emotions.When we got home from dropping him off she woke up when I pulled into the driveway and asked "mommy are we at the Army now?" I told her the best way I could explain to her that Daddy had to leave again and she started crying....I hate that she has to feel the same pain as I do an I pray she does well during the next 7 months while hes away.
Adalyn is something else lol she constantly wants to sit up and I bet she will start crawling very soon cause she knows what she needs to do.I showed her a picture of Daddy and she started smiling so much and cooing.I ended up in tears cause I was so happy she knows who Daddy is:).Ill do my best to remind the girls everyday  of their Daddy and just how good he was and still is to us.He is such a great man.

Right now I feel like I dont want to do anything but stay in this house.I feel safe here knowing there is no drama nor people who can bring me down during this hard time.Im much happier watching reality tv and taking care of my precious girls.I have decided I will be going back to work but I havent decided where yet or what exactly I wanna do.I have Home Health Nurse for my first pick right now but will see.I know my girls really need me right now since things are changing all around them but when we get into our schedules again things will get better.

Well thats what I have for now..I hope to keep posted on whats going down in the Perry's life so keep a look out cause our life is something else.