Timing is everything....

So today felt like it went by so fast and well it did.I missed my husband and he was never off my mind today.Hearing he was back from his mission and doing well was awesome to hear.Ive been trying to get into a system with the girls and trying to find things to make life a little easier on us.Im sure it will take a few more days but man its really taking a toll on me.Im sure Ill get it and I pray I do soon..very soon.
  Skype time is precious timing for me..I feel like even though we talked for 2 hours or an hour it only feels like  a few minutes:(....I almost end up in tears every time we get off of it cause I feel like theres always something Im not able to say or did I tell him enough that I loved him..Just thinking about it makes me sick:(...I know Im thankful that I can even talk to my husband and even see him through this deployment but that dosent make it any easier..
  The girls are doing okay but Sophia is having a hard time still.Grandma is with us tonight which Im very thankful for cause I know she loves Grandma.She's also doing better on listening and obeying mommy's rules but you know how kids can be I guess.Adalyn is trying so hard to crawl and almost did it again for Daddy today on Skype.Im pretty sure shes teething already....blah....My girls are my world and I hate that my husband is not here to go through all of this with us.I know some is through Skype but its hard doign it all on my own.Even when I do have help its still hard.Im never relaxed or I think theres always better ways to do things so im constantly on my toes.
  Im at my breaking point with friends..I cant trust anyone and some times I feel like people dont even care.Or they are just friends to pass the time until they are with their husbands.So I put the highest wall up so they dont break me or my relationship.The main reason I started this blog was to keep updated so that my husband can read or my family&close people who care to read will be updated in our life.Its hard to make Army wife friends cause they are either crazy drama freaks or so far away that theres no reason to become close cause I dont wanna put them through hell of driving so far when I know they are having it rough as well.So being home and living life through my girls is th ebest thing for me right now and I pray it only gets better from here.

  I know that I will always stand beside my husband and support him in whatever hes life takes him and love him Everyday of Forever....I love you Patrick so much that there are hardly any words to describe my love for you.I thank our Heavenly Father every night....