Another day is gone....

 Okay so today was just me and the girls..started off by getting only like 3 hours of sleep total and waking up to both girls in my bed lol...Very lazy but stressful day it was.Sophia got her jersey today and she is number 55:)!Im so proud and cant wait for her to ware it for her first game next week!..I havent been feeling well today and im not sure whats wrong but I better get well fast cause I have to much planned out for this weekend.Dinner was some what okay...lol screaming baby and Sophia complaining about her cleaning her room..but we managed and everyone got fed even if my food was cold by the time I got to enjoy it haha.Thats okay as long as I get my time now to enjoy my shows and write in my blog...
  It makes me think of just how much Patrick helped out when he was here.Even the little things helped out in a million ways.Like keeping the girls busy while I cooked dinner or even taking the trash out helped so much.Now that its all on me it be rough..and I dont see how other mothers do it with more kids than what I have but I guess they take it day by day and learn with each day that passes.I can tell you this that I sure do appreciate everything my husband did for me and is still doing even when hes around the world.
  I like it here with just me and the girls.No one to bother us nor have any drama dealing with everyone else.I love bonding with them more than I ever thought I would.I also enjoy our Skype time with my husband.Its been such a blessing and were so happy he calls everyday.Its something we look forward to everyday.It helps us keep going like we have much better days when he contacts us more and even with the girls.Sophia does so well when Daddy calls it so cute that shes so excited for her Daddy time:).
  Im trying to deal with life and get into a system to what makes me happy as well as keeping the girls happy while hes away.Im not sure where the road takes me right now but I do know our girls come first.So I guess will see and another day will go and I will soon find peace I just hope its soon.I plan on going to a few workshops that the military has for parents to help with childern of deployed parents and I hope it helps.
  I miss him so much and just going about another day praying and wishing he was her safe in our arms again.Its hard but I do it and let me tell you its so worth every heart ache.
I love you Patrick Perry you are my everything Everyday of Forever!