So much to think about....

Today Sophia had her game at half time with the NSU Riverhawks and it went awesome!Such a fun and exciting time they had.She scored 2 goals and won!!I so proud of all my Panthers!!

Im in the middle if thinking of where do I want to go from here...there are so many options and I honestly wanna chose now instead of later.I wanted to wait until Adalyn was old enough but that cant happen.So things will change and I have so much to think about with where my future is going.


I got to talk to my husband tonight again and I sure missed him so much!Hes my best friend and its so hard not having him here.Its also so hard not showing him my dress!!I have chosen not to have bridesmaids and I have my reasons..if I could have my husband to be the maid of honor I so would but he is the groom and I wouldnt change that for anything.He is the man God gave us and chose this life for us because he knew we would last a life time as each others forever.I love him and Im blessed with the 2 beautiful girls to make our fairytale a happy beginning.

Its been a few days..

So today was the better than any day Ive had so far..why?...because my daughter won her game again and scored 3 goals!!!Also we got Patricks dvd in the mail which I surprised the girls with Daddy reading them 2 books on the disk!!!I had time to finish all of the care packages as well and they are ready to ship and send!!On top of that Ive found my wedding dress and its perfect:)!!!

Today was perfect in the bet way possible while my husband is away.I miss him like crazy and it gets very hard not having him here but I think im doing a lot better than I was.I got to skype with him again tonight and just seein ghis face made me tear up (which im sure he didnt even notice lol ty skype)....Ill continue to pray to get through this nightmare.I miss him and love him more than words could explain.


Sophia gets to play a game of Soccer in between the Riverhawks Soccer game tomorrow and Im so happy for my Panthers!!!I will for sure take some pics:)!!

Im off to bed Im so exhausted but I will continue to pray for happiness and positive support all around.I love you Patrick with all my heart Everyday of Forever.......

p.s. its been a few days but ill be back;)!

Arts&Crafts

Today went well..spent a lot of time with our girls and had fun doing crafts with Sophia.We also got to talk with Daddy on Skype which was so cute cause Sophia was making Adalyn laugh so hard bahahaha to cute!!!
Tomorrow is Sophias Soccer practice and this coach cant wait!!!
It was good to talk with my hubby today I really needed that time as well.My head is still hurting and its been rough around here with Sophia asking questions about everything which makes it hard on me.I cant wait for this night mare to be over with....

I mean every word...

I am pretty much half way through this deployment and there has been so much stress that was never needed.Ive learned one thing about myself (if you mess with my family I will fight back).I give my all in friendships but when you hurt me I will back away but I always forgive in the end cause God would never want me holding a grudge.I am stronger than Ive ever been and have come so far.I am so blessed with the people who have helped me along the way.Some people may not like me but thats just cause they dont know the truth or dont know me.Now-Ive chosen to move on from the people who have hurt me..from the friends who have turned on me and even the family who were never there for me.My husband and my children are the greatest gifts from God himself and I need to start living my life through my Heavenly Father again cause I have lost myself once again to this world of hate.Heres to a new me and a new beginning.This is to living me through me now♥.I love you Patrick Perry Everyday of Forever....


I know this was pretty much my status but I ment every word....


Sophias Soccer practice went so well today and I am very thankful that the parents helped out today.After telling them half way through I had I minor concussion lol I think they felt bad but it went great!!Adalyn stayed home with grandma and had fun playing an getting spoiled.


Me-Im so sore I fell asleep on the couch and woke up to Sophia covering me up lol shes such a blessing and such a good sister to baby Adalyn.I love my girls.


Oh and the guys got their Care Packages!!!!!!How awesome is that!!!They loved it!!!Im so happy it went around to like 6 guys.Makes me one proud Army Wife.Now I cant wait to start making their Halloween ones haha;)!

Back on track...

Okay so Sat Sophia won her Soccer game!!!I had so much fun coaching my Panthers they did so well yet again!!!She hasent had any accidents but still has that attitude like shes all that ughhh my baby girl is growing up to fast...

Adalyn is loving this Mommy time lol...even when my mother stays she sleeps with me at night.She always has to kick her arms and legs to make sure Im there haha to cute but her kicks hurt.She is loving her play pin now and gives me more time to get things done.

Me-Well ya know..Im back on track and loving every minute I have talking to my husband.I miss him very much and it hurts to have him so far away.I cant call when I need him.I cant see when I miss him.I cant kiss him when I  wanna love him.....it got to me these past 3 days...our communication sucked but thankfully we worked through it and everything is back on track.

We also set out Save the Date!!!!Finally having our wedding we didnt get to have cause of the deployment and being pregnant.We both deserve it and we are finally getting our day.

Just another day....

  Just another day with my beautiful girls and me.I had a lot of thinking and planning today on my everyday life for our girls.We have Soccer practice tomorrow an Im excited to Coach again I enjoy teaching my Panthers.Adalyn was very excited to see Daddy on Skype today and just stared and wouldnt take her eyes off lol.

  I know my girls miss their Daddy and it takes a toll on me thats for sure.I still need to work on communication with my husband and its very hard with delays through skype and phone with Internet messing up on both ends.Im trying to stay calm and do my best.

  Im also working on trying to be a better mother cause I think there are days where I slack and I feel like a bad mother and I know I shouldnt but thats how I feel.I wanna be the best for our girls and I know I can do better.

  I miss my husband very much and I cant wait to get the girls package in the mail of Daddy reading them a book for each other.Im sure I will play it over and over haha;) I sure do miss my husband....

Missing my best friend....

 So today was filled of stuff that needed done I sent off 4 care packages to the guys and I sure hope they love them.I also coached Sophias Soccer practice and it went very well Im so happy to see that they are all learning and getting better at the game while having fun.I also went out to eat with the grandparents and Mother with the girls.That also went very well.
  Sophia is getting better at Soccer and working on dribbling the ball very well Im so proud of her and her team.She sure misses Daddy Patrick though and it sucks cause I dont know what else to say but remind her of what I know.
  Adalyn is doing well once again just waiting on the day that she takes off.She loves sitting up with support and is also eating oatmeal for dinner now.It helps her sleep through the nigh which is so good for mommy lol.


Im learning how to keep busy and pass the time and honestly some times I feel like my day goes so fast and I cant finish or do the things that I need to get done:(..but I know when it dosent go fast I complain about it going to slow so Im like whatever now cause Im trying to find a mutual in them both..Wish me luck...

I sure miss my husband though and im trying so hard to live life without him for the moment and it sucks.I hate not having him here and not being able to have my best friend......